Anyone else feeling any of this. It seems like just yesterday that I was this organized person, with little to-do lists that I diligently worked on and checked off and felt so good about my organizational skills ....
This is a very accurate depiction of how I feel here lately ...
If I could even come close to looking this (below) held together with the crazy panicky feelings floating through my head, I would almost be happy ...
Seriously though, I need some prayer. I feel like I am so close to being overwhelmed - at work mostly. I am going to have to put in some late nights just to get my sanity back and I really hate working late, but I have realized that unless I do, my sanity will be at stake. The reason I don't like working late, is that no one in my building stays past 5 PM and it's a downtown 2 story building and it's just too eerie knowing you are alone in that big building and sometimes the timed auto locks are working and sometimes they are not and it gets dark so early now. Yeah, I know I am a whiny baby, scaredy cat, old woman (not in all situations though ...). I am afraid of the dark too. I have accepted all of this about myself.
Things probably aren't as bad as what I make it sound, I have just had four restless nights worrying about different things at work, and that has made me antsy - so I am stressing more than usual. I am wondering if my subconscious is trying to warn me of a possible catastrophe ... see still stressing. Laying it down to the Lord does make me feel better, but I am still only human and my weak human side fights to take control ... and then I can really screw things up!
Think this comes in chocolate?
3 comments:
Holidays seem to be like that. I also don't feel as productive at work since the time change. Just take a deep breath and try to keep it all in perspective. I'll be praying for you!
Hi V. I'm sorry you are feeling so stressed out. I can understand about not wanting to be in the building at night...it would have me on edge as well. I'm also afraid of the dark at times. Could you consider having your hubby come and stay with you while you finished up what you were working on or maybe another person you know in the building? I find myself giving thing up to the Lord and then not having the faith that he will take care of it. I will be praying for you...I know you will come though it.
Maybe instead of staying late, you could go in early - or see if your boss would let you work from home a half a day - you would probably get more done at home in a peaceful place than you can imagine. Then you could do a few loads of laundry and put something in the crock pot too. :) I love doing that sometimes. Being organized stresses me! It is not in my nature. Hang in there and know that there are folks praying for you. And remember a little ice cream always makes things more bearable.
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